It's the day to make some resolutions.
-- write at least 3 times a week
-- drink lots of water
-- stay in contact with friends
-- do something physical every day
-- take more film classes
-- cook more

My goals for this year:
-- finish at least one documentary
-- become the consultant I want to be: efficient, reliable, thoughtful
-- lead a 5.8 trad route in Yosemite this summer
-- create one pop-up book
-- learn either basic Spanish or basic Tagalog (both would be great, but that's not realistic)

Just updated my resume and put my "alternate resume" online, too. Trying to be more serious about doing this video thing in the next year. Decided it was important to remember the amount of theater work I've done. I wonder if there are things I've forgotten. At least now I have a basic accounting of what I've been up to.

Otherwise, continuing the process of packing up my house. I'm being excrutiatingly slow about it.

oh, and here's a more recent photo of Tyler:

Concsiously making my mood turn around. I'm now packing, listening to funny stories on NPR, and just generally trying to think of positive things. Thoughts of New Years Resolutions and overall planning are of course bouncing around in my head. I think this is going to be the "get off my duff" year. I know I've been doing things, but I'm not doing enough. Time to check things off my "to do someday" list.

Just finished a fabulous book, "Word Freak" by Stefan Fatsis. It's ostensibly about the world of competitive Scrabble, but becomes more interesting than that since it's really about his own descent into obsession. Being obsessed with obsessives, it definitely worked for me.

It also made me want to get a Scrabble board and get immersed. Don't think I would ever be able to play KNURS or have a chance at even seeing LIAISES, but now the idea of learning the strategy of the game is intriguing. And being comfortable with some odd words, like QAT, are fully within the realm of possibility.

Audrey suggested that I can see it as a good thing that a couple of major bad things have happened to me recently... as opposed to having each of them happen separately with some time inbetween, thereby ruining more days because the yuk would be drawn out.

Julia asked me if the speed at which I try to solve problems and resolve unresolved issues, what can be seen as something akin to impatience, could contribute to my general inability to have a relationship.

Both insightful good points. Things that I should pay attention to. I still feel like crap.

major breaks between blog posts... currently in the storm before the calm, I believe. Things are wildly emotionally unstable. Some things excellent, some horrid. It's better than all horrid, I suppose, but it's exhausting. I feel like taking a nap and waking up in January in my new apartment.

quick post: I got an apartment!!! So excited. Less rent and more fabulousness. That's an equation I can live with. I was almost thinking that I shouldn't hold out for something that had all of what I was looking for, but then it showed up. Phew! So on the 1st of the year I get to start over.

Time to think of some resolutions to go along with this whole new start thing.

But right now it's time for bed.